Friends who know me here might have heard me complaining about my difficult trader who hasn't really been very nice. Bossy and everything, she made life not easy for me, but thanks to my manager who always comes to my rescue whenever she's being difficult to deal with in terms of "hardcore PnL analysis".
Thing is, this desk is now one of the biggest in my team, in terms of currencies and volumes to some extent, and maybe my manager thought my experience in SG office could prepare me to deal with them... but then soon I realise it seems my character clashes with her and we have a mutual feeling of dislike for each other. Honestly, I get all nervous when she asks a simple question coz I always want to make sure I get my facts right before answering her or else... and it gets to me. Thankfully she has a more sane assistant J who looks at the PL too and he has apologized a couple of times for being rude and all, asking me to understand given the current market conditions, etc.. which I do try to understand but you know being human, you get offended there and then as well..
Looking back, I have learnt a lot besides technical skills, but also from my manager, the way he works, ie being numb to all these nasty people we face in our job. He seriously can focus on what needs to be done and still does it with no anger, no matter how rude they are to him. Very impressive. AND can still joke saying "ok I'm gonna wear my bullet proof vest now.. part and parcel of the job!" when he needed to tell a trader he just lost a lot of money due to some back office error.
Anyway with some major restructuring that happened in front office this year, now this desk which I support is no longer under my team's coverage and another team will be doing their PnL. But because they are using a completely different PnL reporting system, I will be roped into this project of migrating the PnL process to their team to ensure a smooth handover. Oddly, I know I should jump for joy, or at least heave a sigh of relief but somehow I am not as happy as I think I should be! In fact, I am feeling a little sad which is so strange and I can't explain it at all. Hmm...
Thing is, this desk is now one of the biggest in my team, in terms of currencies and volumes to some extent, and maybe my manager thought my experience in SG office could prepare me to deal with them... but then soon I realise it seems my character clashes with her and we have a mutual feeling of dislike for each other. Honestly, I get all nervous when she asks a simple question coz I always want to make sure I get my facts right before answering her or else... and it gets to me. Thankfully she has a more sane assistant J who looks at the PL too and he has apologized a couple of times for being rude and all, asking me to understand given the current market conditions, etc.. which I do try to understand but you know being human, you get offended there and then as well..
Looking back, I have learnt a lot besides technical skills, but also from my manager, the way he works, ie being numb to all these nasty people we face in our job. He seriously can focus on what needs to be done and still does it with no anger, no matter how rude they are to him. Very impressive. AND can still joke saying "ok I'm gonna wear my bullet proof vest now.. part and parcel of the job!" when he needed to tell a trader he just lost a lot of money due to some back office error.
Anyway with some major restructuring that happened in front office this year, now this desk which I support is no longer under my team's coverage and another team will be doing their PnL. But because they are using a completely different PnL reporting system, I will be roped into this project of migrating the PnL process to their team to ensure a smooth handover. Oddly, I know I should jump for joy, or at least heave a sigh of relief but somehow I am not as happy as I think I should be! In fact, I am feeling a little sad which is so strange and I can't explain it at all. Hmm...
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really that is great news. I know that you weren't happy with your job and that particular trader. But maybe you are not jumping of joy because you have a feeling that you could have 'left this' on a different note? But don't think you should worry about it, just be glad that you don't have to do this for much longer.
See you Sunday,
Sabrina xx
see ya sunday!