Our worst fears have come to past. It was indeed D Day. Kat says "it's officially the worst day of my life in JPM." And I think so too! (I had to double check that it wasn't Friday the 13th or something like that...)
She reached at 7.30am and I reached at 8am. From then on, it was full force looking at the whole trade package all over again with the official numbers and it was seriously, hell. System showed him losing millions which was a very bad sign to start off with esp when he was looking at making like huge money. I can't even describe how terrible it was. Don't even want to describe how brushes with C went by throughout the day.
We hounded our manager with calls while he was driving to Wales. You know those times when you keep going through the same stuff all over again until you really feel so sick? Yep we both got that. We knew everything was supposed to be correct but then it's not reflecting in the numbers we see in front of us. And we had to find out why.
It felt like I was going through some bits of uni life again if you recall those days when you were pouring over numbers in front of you and rushing for a project deadline or something like that but then this is real stuff, involving real economic impact which made it scary.
And as if it wasn't bad enough, on our way to the trading floor, we actually got stuck in the lift!! Can you believe it? Omg we didn't know whether to laugh or cry. Thankfully it lasted for about a min before the door opened and we realised we were on the ground floor! We then decided it's wiser to take the stairs up instead.
I've counted and realised both of us spent a full solid 11h looking at this for the whole day with no breaks in between, not even counting the 5h we spent on Thursday.
Sometimes I think we all have to remind ourselves it's just a job afterall at the end of the day. I do need this reminder because at times I do feel like I'm stuck (not always lah but esp in times like this) and when you think about it, you know you do have a choice at the end of the day. It's not like I have to do this forever for the rest of my working life. And Ting always tells me "Bel, you won't see these nasty people ever again in your life when you come back Singapore so why let them affect you?" Very wise words indeed.
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